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ahh!!! gone so crazy!!!! dang art takes so much time to finish.. haix.. hmmm.. went out with my cousin today!!! watch fantastic 4!!!! omg!!! thwe fire guy is sooo cute n farnie!!! haix.. if onli.. hmmm..what is life without love? the moment i try not to think of you, i think of you more. is this love? or is this infactuation? if onli i knew what is going on with my life. whether its screwing up or it is screwed already. 40 pts!!! where cani go? no where!!!! if onli.. if onli my love life is answered. if onli i was what i could be. if onli i di what i could b4 i onli had the choice to regret, move on and try harder. why is it that life cant be easy? why why why??? im so confused over everything. reletionships, studyies, what is really stress, etc!!! grr.. life. i hate it. why is it i am once bitten twice shy? why is it that all i can think of is whether or not this or that could happen?i need an anwser. your answer. can anyone in my family or frens notice what is happening now?
–i wana burst into tears. but i cant.cause what im crying for is what will never happen–
there’s no hope for anything in life now. 2012.waiting for you to come to end me.

have you ever felt like as though you have screwed up your entire life just by doing one thing wrong?fulfilling our materialistic part of of our life makes a guilt inside us.especially me.when i bought my hats today, i felt like my life was never going to be happy again. that in future, i hav nothing. no happiness because i wasted away my time ,for playing and spending away monay like im printing$$, instead fer my studies.now i regret nonsensically using precious unreversible time.screwing up my major exams for sure.not life of happiness to past in future.feel like i hav no tommorow.no feelings to past.i feel like i wana do something for a meaning and future. for a purpose! what im doing now is onli to fulfil my endless materialistic life.this does not give happiness forever.this is not purposesible. what do i do without $$ in future? enjoy now. suffer later. wouldnt u also wana suffer now then later? life is never enjoyable. although we enjoy ourselves, think of it! while we are, we still hav some u nhappiness of what we are doing inside.tired out of playing.keep telling myself to start studying. but. cant seem to start.how i wish i was in a sports skool. or music skool. den i would b doing much better there.why study when i cant. and is not my preference?tired out from every last thing i do and think of.i wish i could end this with knowing there is a future. the everlasting one.

haha!! this whole… week wasnt home. first time xia!! first hav art camp where did models over n over again with alo of nice thumbnails n bla.. den kuantan trip where we "climb" rocks..explored caves..shook suspension bridges which the motorists used..watched fireflies on boats that were driven by boatmen in the dark swampy mangrove forest.they looked like faries!!!travelled non stop till wana piuk.. bought loads of stuff.. sha!!! i got u smth!! hee!! so hurry n cum tmr ya? then can give u the souvinier.. hee!!!usewd up all 300RM. whahahhahaha..candy floss..set of clothes..bag.. hats..almost got DC shoes which cost only 45.95 sing $$ lor!!! but globe shoes still better.. i think. hmph! long so mean!!when i said i wanted toget globe shoes.. only said.. ha!i m wearing it now. grr!! i want that design!! i dun care!! buy fer me!!!bleh!n wad u mean dun b black face?> i noe i got sun burn from m’sia trip lor. dun need to add on.. haix!!!!!the plastic bags are so much nicer than sing ones!!! but very cheapo. the colour is painted n get on ur hands very easily!!! den my bro damn weird today. went screwing up my hair n head like as though drilling nuts!! den said alot of crap like… kor i noe u dunnoe how to espress ur love fer me. u dun hav to treat me like the dogs u hav here. or..my head is bleeding!!! whahhahaha!!hmm.. going upload photos now. whee!!!

whahahaha!!! my mum say dun rebuild hse till after my o’s cause very distracted. b ut after she explained everything juz now.. im totaly distracted already!!!! haha!! den now cant study fer nuts!! all im thinking bout is my new room.. wheee..  orange!!! juz like wad shuk said. hahaah!! cher scare me today when she woke me up xia. oh my gosh!!b *clear throat* not "!xobile" hor. so tired. haix. so muchwork to do. but spent entire night discussing bout hse plans.  n taking pics of stars made out of fingers. stupid feet star that looked like jellyfish n one pair feet shapes. lame eh? oh well. my whole family n i are all the same. sha!! where did u go? i cant reach u at all. ="(
!ussel. haha. omg! cant get that phrase out of mui head!! gag!! haix. anthony by day. tap sum bong by night! CHOPSTICKS MAN throws fortune cookies to robbers. confucious say" u r a naughty boy.u go to jail."

haha!! i watched madagascar today with feonna!!! omg!!! so freeking farnie!!! n feonna!! omg!!!uve changed alot xia!! haha!  oh my.. saw ppl i noe from skool in moss. whats with moss? everytime im there.. for sure to meet someone i noe!! >.<  so paise.saw teacher too! heex!!hmm.. came home.. watched like all three ali potri shows.. n.. long.. how am i weird?  =S dont get u. i dun do testi fer nth excuse me. wad a fren. grr!!! haha!! anyway.. saw the chinese o’s paper. it so.. em.. G R E E N !!! haha.. wad u expect? i noe how to read the words? haha! hmm. gary.. cheer up k?> there’s still a second time to do it. heex! oh well.. tmr hav skool till damn freeking late!!! ah!!! haix. nth really much to sae. someboday juz turned my day the other way. freeking toot head. talk bout me sae nicely lah! u noe me ever since i was born still treat me like i m not related to u. n not care of my feelings when u tell other people things!!! grr!! no wonder i get irritated by u sooo easily!!!

=>went gym for 1 n 1/2 hr.[sprained neck muscle]
=>club’s toilet damn nice! changed alot!
=>ate in club tea house.[bought fish n chips for yuan.. puff n cupcakes for hua.]
=>stuck in rain.[ma borrowed umbrella.asked Long to hold it but pulled n stretched my shirt n held on to the umbrella  handle to make sure everyone was in n went squealing as we walked towards to car]
=>went home.[ didnt talk for rest of the day]
=>sorry gary. wasnt in the right mood. u noe me lah. not good mood. dont talk or not much.so when u started talking to me continuously, i totaly went off my head. sorry.]
=>grr!! ma watched russel peters again.. so boring. n the way everyone was talking to me today n asking for requests are like as though i did something wrong. n never say anything or asked any favours politely.]esp. my younger sister n my older bro. sheesh!! down right irritating!! i mean.. duh!!! i am studying in the living room. n duh!! i dunnoe i m blocking ur veiw of the tele! grr!! duh!! i m doing something on my com to prevent noises to sound.kor!! u were watching my screen!! why do u still ask in such a blur n irritating busy-body naggy way?i am not doing anything wrong leh!! u dont hav to give me that tone and scoldingly ask me such a phrase of words!!! freeking idiots i hav in the house!!it’s so duh of what i am doing. so innecerssary to say anything!!! so duh!!! obviously i would fly at u irritatedly!!! in the first place!! i dont even wana talk!! i told u all that already!! why still fly at me? freeking siblings!!
=> now. praying hard for everyone who are taking MT o"s tmr.
=>hope sha wld do fine tmr. =) n then can go ur house or go out with gang ppl!! =P

hahahhahaha!!! russel peters rocks!!!! hahaha!!! damn farnie xia.. go get it!! or from me.. hmm.. borrow only.. haha.. somebody is going to get hurt real bad. someone. u noe him very well. the longest no uve ever heard… nnnnooooooooooooooooooooo nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.u seem .like nice guy. i sell u best price.34.50!but thats only 50cents!! gimmie $30. i sell u $30.. tmr i close down. lol!! hmmm… my mum;s frens came over today.,.. so full!!! ate so much fishes..ice cream.. n now im stuffed n sneezing away. hahaha.. long!!! u so cheeto!!!! play sm6 use my zao.. but ui totaly push me off!!!! hmph!! haha.. yay!! can get another board liao. haha.. today damn humid xia. haix. felt so giddy all the time. went running.. almost collapse xia.. whole body totaly started t hurt. grr!! muz b cause slept at like 4+ am[trying to study] haha.. haix.. oh well.  played all day. whee!!! n jie. long. n kor’s dum uploading photos thingy. adoi!! competed like xiao. an jie went placing the end of the earth photos in the slides for video instead of the ones they scanned in. haha. she seemed that she was advertising for the end of the world to come soon. haiyo!! brien!!! u n ur..whine!!!!! haha!! dun get drunk!! =over n out=

huh? is it really a farewell mass or a morning for sleeping in the hall till our ass is sooo sore n numb? hmm.. i think i got too much fats..haha!! the talks about china n skool moto so boring!!! they were all talking to themselves.. juttering n couldnt undersatnd a word of what the first speaker was talking about!!! haha!! everyone was fallling asleep around me lor!!! den teachers also!!! haha!! so farnie!!! chek chek!! haha!! den me  huiqi siti chang jin n shaylyn went play zi gou pa!!! haha!!! they power xia!! yay!! woke all of us up for sure.hmm.. den had quiz!!! my level won!!! but.. but had barbie doll paper clip prizes!!! eee!!!i dun like barbie dolls at all!! so didnt take. haha!slept in the car.. n the whole afternoon!!! still sleepy. wheee… eh? nirousha.. why ya farewell is after o’s de? haha.. so weird. hmmm..den rmb that my mum tld her cousin yesterday on the dinner table that no matter i do wel for o;’s or not.. she will make me study in canada. wah liu!!! wad bout the agreement?? F***ing hell!!!wow!!! dun trust.. dun believe.. ground me for all i care..i cant study for nuts at home!!! try me!!! ill juz fall asleep!! ha!so whatr for do i study for o’s? im studying for the wrong thing aint it?if i get good grades.. u r juz using it to make sure i get to b an undergrat in uni in canada! but im staying here no matter what!!! why dont u think anything positive about poly? grr!!! stupid thoughts!
juz cause if that.. i cldnt do anything during maths tuition!! freek!!! den watch tv ever since. freek!

grr!!! why muz ah zu die??? this drama show is too much!!! juz like xi ling men 2 xia. grr!!!going over board!!! eee ear!!!! den today fell asleep everywhere again. ay..ling.. bigger the better meh? the tix in total would b harder to get.. n MORE EXPENSIVE! haiyo!!! dang new policy. so lame!!!! increase for wad?? haha!! i dunnoe..but why?? kinda unnecerssary to do it..well. to me that is..hee!!hmmm.. today chinese ..cher kept on dragging her lessons. first say after the assignment den watch show. but after that assignment.. give us another.. n a nother.. eee ear!! den say next time.. wal liu!!! so irritating xia. shi didnt keep to her word. grr!!!
today ate alot!!! wheee!!! n im bigger than a sumo liao. den when i went to walk my dog.. SNOWY!!!…i forgot i was wearing that grr sing-t team shirt. den sooo many people stare like im some mysterious person. eee ear!!! anyway.. koko was jumping like a kangeroo when hua brought her out for a walk.. n kept waiting for snowy to b next to her. haha!! so cute. but gross!!! she went sniffing his ass lor!!! eeee!!!! *shivers*yay!!! tmr going gym after skool!!! cant wait!!!haix.. found out i was qualified for that DSA thing. but very low L1R5 lor!! like 40 points!! grr!!! should hav had studied. i wld hav if yhey did tell us bout this stupids thing at the beginging of the year!!!! argh!!!d3en when told ma.. she jzu had to tell my auint all bout wad i was so called ‘intending’ which was onmly soooo her one sided view of me again!!!my parents are juz getting so irritating these days!!! tooot ah!!! wad kinda life can rthere b? freek!!! wheee!!! =over n out=

ah!!! so sleepy the whole day!!! muz be the after effects of testerday’s very bad cold.. haix.. slept in class the whole day n need my frens to wake me up!!!! so pai se. instead of sleeping on purpose.. im sleeping by accident!!! some more on the classes which i wana pay `attention too!!! haix.. oh welll..
hmm.. went running/jogging/walking/jumping round my neighbourhood today for the whole afternoon when i got back. haha!! so mad.. i noe.. but only went running 1/3 the time.. hee!!! den went to shop in bukit timah plaza!!! hee!! almost bought ou de yang cd. but decided to get it next week when going with gang ppl!!! whee!!! cant wait to see u guys after soooo long of examinations!!!! whahahahha!!! hmm… bought my drawing pencils n notebooks!!! haha!!! they’re so nice lor!!!! orange.. black. purple..wheee!!!! so tired now. but muz do art!!! ive not even started on my structure for art!! grr!! eh? but dinner was great!!!claypot rice..gang kong..fried chicken wings.. saba fish with lemon!!! who can ask more??? haha!! watch les chorist!! damn nice!!! oh my gosh!!! the boy;’s voice rocks!!!! wana learn that song n sing it in choir xia.. whee!!! oh ya!!! wana buy vcd liao!!! today watched in class.. damn nice n touching!! a fight for love!!! haha!! so touching!! but was sooooo tired.,. falling alseep. hee. thn x deborah for waking me up[though i fell back asleep again.. hee] niu lang!!!! n stupid xiao hua.. haha!!! xi que is sooo cute!!! heee!!! u guys watch it if waondering wad im talking about. legend of love. ya? heee!!!